people say being in the middle has the most benefits,
you don't have to worry about ruining the relationship between the two parties who were having problems with one another.
given that, this particular middle person is able to keep up with his or her poker face and remain the neutral one throughout the whole ordeal.
this middle person may try to help the two get back together,
but on normal terms, it would fail,
but the success rate is still measurable.
sometimes, when people know they are in the middle of a mess,
they learned not to care, and just leaving the two to settle their own problem.

whatever it is, it is never a nice thing being stuck in the middle.
most of us, had no choice, and we are somehow thrown to this 'sacred' place where no evil pranced about, making us go away from it all.
wait. that's because there are forces from elsewhere, pushing us towards this 'sacred' place and getting caught.
some people may have been lucky to evade from the 'sacred' space, escaping without the slightest effect of it all.
mind you, the force i was talking about was referring to the forces, the heavy emotional feeling of the two parties swarming you, flooding you, with such energy that you have no choice but to give in.

i am making no sense at all
i apologise for that.

so what do you do when you are caught in the middle?
you can be either one of the two types mentioned above,
both comes with different pros and cons.
and it is actually possible to be either one, because we, humans have our mighty minds, where we can use to help us make decisions, decisions that would bring a different outcome, based on which decision you have picked.

if you have decided that it would be a good idea to help the two parties,
you may as well be dubbed the dumb one
yes, you have good intentions,
you have that thought, "if i don't do anything, i might as well lose the both of them."
being stuck in the middle is one of the toughest situation to be in,
it is way worse than being stranded on a deserted desert,
or being locked up in prison,
even with these situations, you still have the thought where you will actually be rescued from.
but when you are stuck, you practically have no escape.
and the reason why i'm saying that thou shalt be dubbed the dumb one,
is simply because, you are missing the point that you are a human,
you have emotions, you can't stay neutral for too long,
you, will somehow succumb to either one of the side,
either that,
or, you'll just end up insane.
insane where you would start taking in whatever they are trying to tell you, trying to figure out why, and also understanding on how to fix that matter up.
you, will fail.
if you are the type who doesn't give it that much of a thought, you should be grateful.
in a way, you save yourself from insanity
but mind you, you will always be the one the two will find, because you are the only source where they could confront to.
they are somehow very dependent of you.

if you happen to be the one who manage to escape from the two,
you are lucky.
hold it. don't be too happy about it,
sooner or later, it will still come back to you, somehow.
somehow.
is just does.

what i was trying to say is that,
i hate being stuck in the middle
been caught in this situation for like ever.
as time passes, i learnt that it is okay for me to leave everything behind and try my best to evade from the two parties.
as much as i tried to evade, i always fail.
it somehow comes back and gives me a bitchslap, reminding me of it's existence.

i have tried patching things up,
countless amount of times,
i never succeeded.
never did.
and the fact that it could never be solved, and the fact that i will always be stuck in the middle, is depressing enough.
...
especially when it involves people who are dear to me.